What’s Meant To Be For Me Will Not Pass Me By

This weekend is Miss Florida USA. It’s also the kick off to Miami Swim Week castings. And while I’m not competing at the pageant, there’s so much about the model castings that remind me of those pageant days. The workouts beforehand, being surrounded by other gorgeous women and feeling my imposter syndrome kick in, and standing in high heels for long periods of time. Also seeing other models’ social media posts. Some times I would let that information consume me. I would look at their content and videos and wonder if I need to be doing the same.

It was starting to get in my head, when I realized how this is only one small part of my life. I’m so grateful I have built out the modeling career that I currently have, and Miami Swim Week truly is a fraction of what I have done and what is to come. And even outside my modeling career, my entrepreneurial pursuits as a website designer or even my goal of being a spokesmodel through my business development work have been so fulfilling. There is so much more to my life and career that I cannot let my fear of rejection stop me from all the incredible blessings I am so grateful to have.

This parallels with pageants. I think so much of doing well and placing now has to do with alignment. I truly performed my best 3 years ago at my last year competing at Miss Florida USA, practicing every day for 9 months until I could read, speak, and write my routines on how my hands, eyes, facial expressions, and walk would be. BUT, even so, as much as I wanted the opportunity, it was not meant for me, and that is okay. I wish I knew then what I know now, if it is meant to be then it will be. I will still try my darndest hardest to be my very best, but at the end of the day, worrying about other people’s social media posts or whether I get booked or crowned does not increase my chances of reaching those things.